JUST aquintance.

I'm not wrong am I?
I practically don't know what to say other than our interest.
Our common interest.
When you call me I just go speechless and waits for you to end the call.
If you feel sad reading this I'm sorry.
I don't want to hurt you.
Sorry.
But this is the truth,
How I feel.
Everything.
The reasons for everything.
I'm not going to hide.
I'm just going to face it then.
Going to ignore your existance from then.
Nothing gain easily.
If you feel pain and sorrow,
Emo and all,
Please,
Don't.
It's not worth it.
Not at all.
Life is short.
The times I get piss you try to cheer me.
Let me tell you,
You just made me more piss and uncomfortable.
Your not a bad friend,
Just not the way to cheer me up thats all.

I am all pissed and you tell me to chillax.
What about yourself?
You tell me to chill and you say your problems and say you can't chill?
Look, if you can't chill from your problems,
Same for me okay.
Every person has their limits,
If you go speechless saying,
Chillax.
Please don't.
If you don't know what to say, just don't say anything.

For me,
The way I handle things,
Isn't as bold as you.
I say things at bad timing and even worst,
Deep inside I feel that I'm screwed but I'm not.
You all gave me the warmth of friends,
But I felt it wouldn't last,
The distance and feelings has changed,
I'm sorry.
I can no longer be whoever you want me to be.
I'm just trying to free myself and love my friends who is really with me now.
I may want them to talk to me when I'm emo
But actually,
I kinda like it more when they don't force me to tell them what is going on.
I need attention but not all the time.
I actually feel way more comfortable with my friends.
I may have only 1-2 to trust but,
Quality is better than Quantity.
I don't need one gang of you guys but not understanding who I really am.

There were times when my friends left me and enjoy,
I felt upset and left out,
but we still laughed in the end.

There were times when you guys force me to tell you whats going on,
If I don't say what,
You all will be upset thinking I don't trust you guys.
I will feel upset, angry, left out and more.

Conclusion,
I know what I want now.
I'm sorry for existing in your life.
Treasure those happy memories,
Even if I no longer talk to you all.
I'm just going to stay happy and not go upset.
Because I know my friends,
They are worried when I feel upset.
They just couldn't do anything so they just laugh together even tho I'm upset.
They tried to cheer me but I guess...
I'm no longer the emo yuki.

I love you all my friends,
My babes~ :D :D